A few years ago my best friend sent me a YouTube link—one of many she sent over the years. “I think you may like it”, read her message. I did. The next few weeks I was immersed in listening to Ajahn Brahm, a Buddhist teacher. I believe all religions are somehow connected, and despite being raised catholic, I connected with his words and teaching.

Guilt—one could write books about it and hundreds were. Many people experience guilt—sometimes, often or all the time (I used to belong to the last group).

My Sister wrote me a letter…
An important one…
Full of love and with love.
She told me…

“No more illusions.
Fate was not kind to me”.
Up there, far up,
The jackdaw cries.

My story. I am a forty seven years old woman, born in Poland in the seventies. I moved to America twenty three years ago, for a reason not known to me at that time. Now I know—I was running away… From what? From all the responsibilities I took upon myself—by myself.

I am alone in the house.
Do I feel lonely?
No…I enjoy my own company.
I love myself and being with myself.

To love yourself is…
…to take care of yourself,
…to eat what makes us feel good,
…to tell yourself kind, inspiring, and supporting words,
…to meet with people who inspire and help you grow, and…
…to avoid those who take us down.

The Ex is out there
Living his life,
Being himself,
And caring just for himself.

I remember many moments from my childhood—the warm and happy ones, as well as the sad. With mom, dad and other people important to me.

I don’t remember my mother touching me when I was a baby, caring for me and telling me that she loved me.
I don’t remember many details from my early childhood.
Maybe because there were so few?
I don't remember much about my father—him playing with me or taking care of me.

You have been with me for many years.
Always good to me
And ready to handle it All!

The nature comes alive again,
The birds sing merrily,
The water rushes swiftly with noise,
And all around are happy.

What you don’t know about me is…
That I am a human, with different emotions passing through my mind and body every day. I am just like everyone else in this world.

Were we ever together,
Did we walk through the woods,
Were you next to me,
Was I with you …

Forgiveness is a big word and an important skill to have. When you forgive yourself or others you will feel better, lighter. When you hold a bad feeling towards someone for what he (she) did to you (sometimes ages ago), you are not hurting the person who did you wrong, but yourself.

She … slim, feminine, beautiful, delicate …
Long hair, a nymph, a goddess …
He … manly, with strong hands, straight …
Calm, warm … with good, soothing energy.

Femininity … is beauty.
It is a slim and voluptuous body.
Femininity … is your hair.
Femininity … is the way you move.
Femininity … is You!
The whole You!

I swam happy, lived peaceful life
And out of a blue …
Got caught …
On a hook.

As a child you play and dream …
To become a mother
To have a child.
You think how wonderful it would be.

Evening is here.
Bath time, relaxing water, smiles.
Children playing and laughing.
World calming around us.